Failure Isn't Always Bad
A little background story, so you understand what I am going on about!
I love horse riding and have been doing it for 2 years. I did also ride when I was younger.
I am pretty confident on the horses at the stables I ride at and have recently started a college course in horse care, this includes riding. I chose to do this course instead of doing 6th form as I am 16. It still counts as A level's though.
Going into the course I knew there would be people much more confident and much more experienced however I didn't expect to become so nervous with my riding!
Basically, today we were riding in our group and everyone else was doing fine, except for me. I know that I am probably the less experienced of us all but ugh I don't know how to explain it.
Basically, I am used to riding 14.2-15.2hh horses (hh means hands high) However, Since being at the college I firstly got put on a 16.3hh and just today a 16.1hh. The height of the horse makes me more nervous than the actually temperament. Silly pony, i'm fine, big thoroughbred that is forward going, not so great.
I am not used to these size of horses so became tense when we were asked to go into a canter because these horses are not school horses like I am used too.
As I went into canter I bounced about and had to basically hang on for fear of falling off, which actually made me bounce even more which meant I was more likely to fall off, I thankfully didn't
Other people would say "wow but you still rode a huge horse" and "you still managed to do it though" To me though, I knew that I could of done better.
When things like this happens to us it can easily make the mind think "The others are so much better than me" We can easily fall into the hole of "I am not good enough" That's pretty much what I thought but what frustrated me most is that I know I can ride (without sounding up myself) I may not be the most confident but I certainly do not bounce about in the saddle when I ride at the riding stables. I easily go over jumps, do courses and hammer it around the school at a much faster speed of canter than we are meant to do. However it still is fine.
That is what irritates me the most though, why can't I do that on the college horses? This got me thinking. Maybe failure isn't always bad, maybe I will have to go onto the smaller horses to boost my confidence and to get comfortable and then move back up to the bigger. Maybe failure only leaves room for improvement as if you are already the best of the best, why go on a course to get better?
So if like me, you have found college so far a bit like this, do not worry. Things will get better, after all it gives us all something to work on.
Sorry for the babble, hope it makes sense, just thought it may help someone and I wanted to get it down on the blog as I often look back on these and I can see how I have come since writing it :)
In a couple of months maybe I will review this :) However I will still be posting my babbles about my little life anyway haha :)
Hope you're all doing well and has college or school been like so far for you. Let me know!
Byeee :D
I love horse riding and have been doing it for 2 years. I did also ride when I was younger.
I am pretty confident on the horses at the stables I ride at and have recently started a college course in horse care, this includes riding. I chose to do this course instead of doing 6th form as I am 16. It still counts as A level's though.
Going into the course I knew there would be people much more confident and much more experienced however I didn't expect to become so nervous with my riding!
Basically, today we were riding in our group and everyone else was doing fine, except for me. I know that I am probably the less experienced of us all but ugh I don't know how to explain it.
Basically, I am used to riding 14.2-15.2hh horses (hh means hands high) However, Since being at the college I firstly got put on a 16.3hh and just today a 16.1hh. The height of the horse makes me more nervous than the actually temperament. Silly pony, i'm fine, big thoroughbred that is forward going, not so great.
I am not used to these size of horses so became tense when we were asked to go into a canter because these horses are not school horses like I am used too.
As I went into canter I bounced about and had to basically hang on for fear of falling off, which actually made me bounce even more which meant I was more likely to fall off, I thankfully didn't
Other people would say "wow but you still rode a huge horse" and "you still managed to do it though" To me though, I knew that I could of done better.
When things like this happens to us it can easily make the mind think "The others are so much better than me" We can easily fall into the hole of "I am not good enough" That's pretty much what I thought but what frustrated me most is that I know I can ride (without sounding up myself) I may not be the most confident but I certainly do not bounce about in the saddle when I ride at the riding stables. I easily go over jumps, do courses and hammer it around the school at a much faster speed of canter than we are meant to do. However it still is fine.
That is what irritates me the most though, why can't I do that on the college horses? This got me thinking. Maybe failure isn't always bad, maybe I will have to go onto the smaller horses to boost my confidence and to get comfortable and then move back up to the bigger. Maybe failure only leaves room for improvement as if you are already the best of the best, why go on a course to get better?
So if like me, you have found college so far a bit like this, do not worry. Things will get better, after all it gives us all something to work on.
Sorry for the babble, hope it makes sense, just thought it may help someone and I wanted to get it down on the blog as I often look back on these and I can see how I have come since writing it :)
In a couple of months maybe I will review this :) However I will still be posting my babbles about my little life anyway haha :)
Hope you're all doing well and has college or school been like so far for you. Let me know!
Byeee :D
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